Trying to concentrate on what I’m reading about living fully
right where I am, but my adult Attention Deficit Disorder kicks in. I stop
reading and strain to identify the barely audible rhythm of a distant car
alarm.
I turn back to the book but the drone of the dryer and my husband’s
morning throat-clearing cough and grooming routine pull my attention away
again. I squint my eyes and beg the Lord to help me hear his voice, fully, with
rapt attention.
Why he called this distractible mind into an administrative
position, I will never know in this life, other than perhaps that the
hyper-focus on one thing can be an immense benefit to accomplishing a project.
But the rest of me struggles to keep track of a plethora of small requests and
some days are worse, with every diversion another brick in the wall of
forgetfulness that bars me from the goal of being a detail-oriented
professional who makes everyone happy.
Should I give thanks for this deficit?
The book says it is through thanksgiving that my wholeness comes.
295. I am grateful that I see life in every diversion.
296. Thankful for a heart that desires joy and completion for
others.
297. Thrilled for tasks that are diverse every day.
298. Pleased to meet others along the path
299. Stunned with the awareness that I can bring death or life
to them through my words, Your words.
Lord, help me pay attention to you.
Let eucharisteo be my corrective replacement lens.
From 1000 Gifts: eucharisteo: an attitude of thanks. Life filling gratitude.
Always good to see the positive side of things, but ear plugs do help.
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